<< In my Head, In my Bed- >>

2003-05-30
4:43 a.m.

I went to my room, laid on my bed and I found myself just lying there thinking about Synthia again. I was imagining everything with her all over again, and I began to get this unknown feeling all over me. At first it floored me to be thinking such crazy thoughts as images of her and I danced in my head. Shivers went up my spine as I gave in and succumbed myself to the arousing it gave me inside. I found myself doing things I could never have imagined in my life. Dreaming it is one thing, but giving in to it all is quiet another. And I just can’t explain to the feeling of excitement it sent through me. There I was just ahhh in a whole new world. My hands became hers and I did every unimaginable thing to my body that you can think of. Giving in and collapsing time after time, all I could see was the image of her searing me as intense passion over took me. Her lips were upon my lips. Her hands caressing my whole being; sent me into a frenzy of hot desire of only wanting more. I began to actually feel her there with me in my bed. I opened my eyes and I swear she was there. I called her name and she answered “Hey, Baby Girl” “I am here to take you home” and I was so unaware of my surroundings as I reached out for her. I tried to grasp what really wasn’t there. I cried out for her to stay and I heard a whisper behind me say “I haven’t left you Baby Girl” I turned around and there was her image upon me again. She said to me “C’mon honey. I know what you want. There’s nothing to it, but to do it” And I left myself drift off into another realm with her. She did so many beautiful things to me even I can’t explain the erotic nature of it all. Her hands grazing across my body so delicately. I would arch at the very touch of her hands upon my skin. Kissing my body with her sweet, soft lips. She sent me into a tailspin. I cried out her name so many times I even brought myself back to where I actually was, but succumbed to the feeling of her again. It was definitely anything, but ordinary.

I said to her in my dream “Am I not supposed to love you like this?” And, she said “You shouldn’t care or wonder how you’re supposed to love me. You can’t fight back the emotions. So come to me and give in.” And, I did. Over and over again. “I’ve never felt like this before” “It’s called love. And I know how much you love me, and that’s why I am here now” I woke up as tears streamed down my cheeks …I actually felt her arms hold me. The warmth it gave me was so peaceful, and sweet. We made passionate love to each other over and over again. So much that I woke up with beads of sweat dripping from my body. In my place alone, I never could have imagined going the distance. I knew there had to be a sacrifice and I knew somewhere in time I would give in to the dream. I just didn’t know when.

I finally crossed that lonely hill, to bring her where I am. I know that I will probably do it again. I just can’t help myself. I love her and nobody else. Without a doubt I know that this was the most erotic moment in my life. With her in my head, and in my bed…





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